Tuesday, November 1, 2011

A blue day

Today is a sad day for me, As I watch suitcases being packed and rooms being emptied I sit here with the realization that I dont know when Ill see my sister and Hannah again. If you've been following my blog since day 1 or for a while now than you know all about my niece hannah and how shes become like a daughter to me. Ive never cared for a child as much as I do for her and I cant imagine having a place in my heart for another baby, but of course this is coming from someone who doesnt have any children of her own.

I'm sure one day I'll understand the love of a mother more clearly, my heart hasn't been in this much pain since getting in a plane and leaving my fiance about 2 years ago. The pain of saying goodbye seems to haunt me, Just when I'm beginning to get used to living without someone another extremely important and valuable person(s) leaves my life without much of a goodbye or farewell.

This is one of the reasons I haven't been posting as often, I tried spending as much time with Hannah and my sister as I could but time just didn't seem to go slow enough for me. I honestly thought this day would never come but in less than 4 hours another piece of my heart will be in a plane to another destination. Its so hard to wake up in the morning and know this is the last time in a while I'll see her, shes so happy and playful not knowing what lies ahead. I wish I could feel the same way!

Im sorry for being so blue and dumping all this on y'all, I needed to vent some of this because it just seems to much to handle right now! Ill leave you all with some recent pictures of Hannah being the wonderful and carefree spirit that she is <3


kisses from me and from her :)

hot chocolate

pondering and imagining


we are "potty training"

I hope you all have a great rest of the week, If I'm MIA for a while you'll know why hehehe HUGS

Gracie <3


  1. :'~(
    I know how you feel. When Amanda first moved to Kansas, and had the nerve to take Owen with her, I was in a funk for days. Chuck and I finally went and bought a new motorcycle. :~)
    Here's a tip for you...get a camera for your laptop, and skype!!!
    I'll be praying for you sweetie.

  2. Aw, I'm sorry to hear how upset you are! :( That stinks that you won't be able to see Hannah as much any more... she's so adorable, and I've loved seeing photos of her on your blog! Such a sweetie pie. I hope the move goes well for her and your sister, though. Sending a big hug your way, Gracie! <3

  3. She is so adorable. Thinking about you!

  4. OOH I feel your pain! Hugs to you! Skype is great!